The NICU is a strange place. It’s a sad place. It’s a happy place. Time stands still and flies by simultaneously. You’d think you would get used to being in there all the time, but sometimes the weight of it all sneaks up and smacks you in the back of the head. In a normal … Continue reading The NICU
Well, this was a post I wasn’t planning on writing so soon. I actually had a plan to write a lovely tribute to my husband and how great of a partner he has been during my pregnancy. I was going to post that on October 17th, which is his birthday, but our plans changed really … Continue reading The Birth & The Repair
My writing process normally goes something like this: idea, notes, emotional/stream of consciousness writing, sleep on it, edit it, reread it, edit it and post. A post normally takes anywhere from 2 days to a week to come together, depending on the subject and how careful I want to be with my words. Today, I … Continue reading The Stigma
Over the past few weeks, I've been asked "how are you doing?" a whole lot, and I have said before on this blog that the answer changes day to day, minute by minute. While I may sound like a broken record, I decided I wanted to dive a little deeper into what it's like to … Continue reading The Ups & Downs
Yay, I have something fun to share today! Our nursery is complete, except for some minor paint touch-ups on the newly installed baseboards and crown molding. It's a little cliche, but we fully embraced tropical decor for the room. Turquoise and teal colors are a bit of a theme through our house, but for a … Continue reading The Nursery
I'm going to preface this post by saying it's probably one of the hardest ones I will write and it could be a hard one to read. I promise it's not going to be horribly graphic or out to scare anyone, but it will be honest and I don't blame anyone for not being able … Continue reading The First Pregnancy
Last Thursday we had an ultrasound. It was 4 weeks since my last one and I was 26.5 weeks along. I mentioned in a prior post that if they couldn't get a clear picture they might recommend an MRI, but we didn't need to. The ultrasound was pretty clear; our son has CDH. CDH stands … Continue reading The Diagnosis
With a lot of uncertainty surrounding the pregnancy, sometimes being positive has to be a very, very conscious choice. People in my life have been wonderful, checking in and asking how I am. Most of the time I say I’m OK, and I am. Sometimes I am really good, but I still just say I’m … Continue reading The Mindset
The bad news came 2 days before Hurricane Douglas was set to ravage Hawaii. There had been bad news before... at 18 weeks, there it was, a dark spot in baby's chest near his heart. But at 18 weeks, it was very hard to see, and the tentative diagnosis was a CPAM, which is essentially … Continue reading The Hurricane
Thank you for coming to this blog. Whether you are a loved one of mine, or someone who is going through or gone through something like this, or just someone who stumbled upon this on the internet, I'm sorry we have to be here at all. This blog is an outlet for me in the … Continue reading The Reveal
